Shanghai, Limpeh coming

got a job at last. probably leaving around mid July.
mixed feelings.

Being a Malaysian

majority of the people who knows me will always label me as someone's who anti malaysia. they feel that whatever i say and do is always against malaysia. i am inspired to write this because i'm just being labelled by someone as a malaysian-hater. yes, i admit i do have some deep hatred towards certain things in malaysia. i hate malaysia's biased policies. i hate malaysia's slacker police forces. i hate malaysia's ever rising crime rate. i hate malaysia's public services. but does it mean that i hate malaysia? no. i love malaysia, indeed.

what i feel for most malaysians is that they can't differentiate between loving malaysia and loving the malaysian government. i love malaysia, but i hate malaysian government. it's no secret. what's up with all the biased policies? crime rates? corruption? being critical of all these equals hating malaysia? you guys are so wrong.
if we really love our country, we will hope to see that our country is going in the right direction. nothing is wrong with malaysia, it's the people that manage malaysia to be blamed. ahhhh..yeah, mahathir,abdullah, and etc etc, semua sama aje.
people like khairy jamalluddin who once called bloggers monkeys, is a blogger himself now. this tells you who's the actual monkey.since election, so many of our "leaders" have resorted to blogging. cheapo betul. now only you blog, where's your sincerity.

saya monyet

many people are living in denial. just because you love malaysia, does it mean that we must accept accept corruption, high crime rates, rapes and etc as part of our culture? what about all those unfair policies, which favours only the bumiputeras? how are they different from us? aren't we borned and grew up in the same country? having only one country to call home? so what seperates us? yes, just by skin colour alone.why do millionares with slightly darker skin enjoys 15% discount on big mansions, where as people from other races who are living on the edge don't have these privileges? i wonder what's so special about them?it seems to be pre-determined in heaven or hell whether we enjoy these so called special rights.

and many people will come and tell me "aiya, malaysia is like that 1 la" .yeah, it's like that because there exist people like u. people who seems to accept everything the government decides, on the basis of loving the country.
ahhh. fortunately, i am not popular. else, i'll probably end up in a lock-up soon. will be charged under sedition act and kena lock up under ISA.
the government always tell the non-bumis " this is sensitive, we can't discuss this, it was a social agreement" . yes, social agreement is it. but why are we, the 3rd generation, still subjected to the same old lousy policy which drove thousands of talents away? it's understandable for our great grandfather to be treated as 2nd class citizens. but they came from china, we came from malaysia. we grew up knowing only malaysia as our home, yet, it doesn't feel like home sometimes. and why are we, the new generations, so sensitive towards people who highlighted the flaws in our country? their ultimate weapon will be "u anti malaysia la". maybe it's the education system, we are trained since young to accept the flaws without questioning.

having studying in singapore for the past 2 years, i can't help but to do comparison. singapore, afterall, was part of malaysia. lee kuan yew even cried of on the tv when singapore was disingkir from malaysia. but i think lee kuan yew is having the last laugh. look at where singapore is now. yeah, i know what u are going to tell me. "singapore is just a tiny little red dot, cannot compare with malaysia". true, but what singapore have then? nothing. no land, no natural resources,nothing, not even water,omg. fortunately, they have brains. what about malaysia? apa pun ada. yet, singapore's economy now is just slightly smaller than malaysia's. looking at NUS itself is good enough. do you know that NUS was part of UM? yeah..part of UM. it was just the medicine faculty. now where is NUS in global ranking, where's UM? and ironically, Dr.M graduated from NUS. LoL.

haihhh...why can't our government just give whoever is best the job? when only will they stop championing ketuanan melayu? when will the day of bangsa malaysia comes? i believe that as long as umno remains, nothing is going to change. umno election is in a few months time. surely, things are going to get more exciting from here. let's see if anwar is true to his words. a september takeover.
insyallah.hahaha

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mediocre results =(

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after reading some of my peers' blog, i felt that i am not alone. i am not the only one in NUS feeling the intense stress. many other people, including one of my coursemate whom i do not know personally, do feel that NUS is a pressure cooker. National University of Stress indeed. and many of us have something in common, from a high flyer in malaysia to become mere peanuts in NUS. well, some high flyers are from malaysia are doing really well, i wouldn't discount that fact. but i have to say that singapore is the place where they segregate malaysia's top scorer into different categories. i always believed that malaysia's education system is screwed up. year by year, more and more people scoring straight As. but how many of them actually deserved it? me, for one, feel that i didn't live up the expectation. i am probably in the mediocre category. but having said that, there are some who are doing extremely well too. eg, our doctor friend chiew hui jin as well as wee ling. credit is given when it's due. =) congrates to both of them.

while i can't help but to feel a bit inferior in this dog eat dog world, i am just glad that i'll be leaving for NOC shanghai soon. praying hard that i get a job. else, i will be stucked in singapore for another horrible semester again. to be frank, after the mediocre sem1 results, i kind of gave up trying to get the perfect results, like what i always did in the past. what i do in subsequent semesters is just to try my best. indeed, i don't really feel stress or pressure during exam period, unlike last time. stress and pressure comes from fear. and i fear no more. cos i'll just accept whatever is it.

in pursuit of better results, i gave up a lot of things. i used to be quite sociable, not anymore. i used to be fun loving, and still is, just that NUS doesn't give me that much time to slack around. everytime when i want to spend some time chilling out, i would think twice.
while the friends that i've mentioned above do feel like me, or maybe even worse (i think they have worse results than me) , they are slightly better off as they have a great bunch of friends around them in NUS. i do have one or two, but not a bunch. hahaha. yes! i am greedy! itula! tak mau pergi orientation! served me right. haha.but many thanks to my Malacca friends! lu budaks have been great! =)
but afterall, does CAP really reflects your self worth? looking at myself, have i really move on from where i left of in malaysia? i asked myself, and the answer is no. i don't think that i've improved a lot in these 2 years. such a waste. NUS is such a great place for you to nurture your skills, yet, i didn't take them, just for the sake of maintaining an average CAP. worth it ? i am not sure. only time will tell. now, i am still waiting anxiously for a job in shanghai. that's the best way for me to improve, and grow as a person, in such short span of time.ahhh...geram la..still tak da new companies call me! #%#$^$^%$%@& >=(

i was really happy when i was offered this programme, as i nv thought i could get it. just wanted to give it a try. and i probably made one of the worst decision by not telling someone i that i applied for it.

in pursuit to better my studies, i have neglected you. i am sorry.
in pursuit of a better future, i have also neglected you. i am sorry yet again.
i have been selfish, i admit.
unfortunately, it's too late to apologize, it's too late~~~ yeah, i am singing. LoL.
still, i would like to say i am very sorry.
i am not sure if our path will ever converge again. seems like we are going on a road of divergence.
however, looking from the positive side, this is a challenge to me. it will serve me as a lesson in the future, and i've learned a lot from it. thank you very much.
till then, i can only wish you best of luck and happiness in whatver you do.

*good luck* =)

Malaysian Artistes For Unity Project VIDEO

this is the reason is left malaysia. so chapalang.hahaha

Jurong Bird Park

It has been a long time since I last blogged. And a lot of thing had happened since. I still remember i was quite enthu to blog initially initially. everytime also got things that i would like to tell you guys. but as soon as i reach for the keyboard, my ideas all gone! haha, it was just so hard for me to translate what's in my brain to the monitor screen. I am learning though. Moreover, , i find that blogging takes up too much of my time, and i didn't really enjoy doing it. each post would take about 1 hour plus to complete. wah lao, wtf, one hour plus le! and each time i blog, i would really like to go all out, say whatever i want to say. but then due to the readers i have, restrictions are inevitable. knn. now i don't care so much anymore. hahaha.

i have so much time now! i really don't know what other things i can do. hence, i blog to waste my time ! and maybe through this blog, i can keep in touch with my friends as well. badly need them, as i am ****ing lonely. hahahahahaha. nola, i know what you guys must be thinking, now only come and find friends. This time, i would really like to thank a few of my frens, who have been supportive and caring through out this period. And those people are Bengkim(kawan baik), Chongyen (doctor love) , Benghay ( sui cai who always ejek me) and elaine =)
Haih, my days would have been gloomier without you guys! thanks!

Now, back to jurong bird park. went to watch bird bird with elaine and bengkim the other day.
here are some pictures.

Us at the world tallest (or asia's) man made waterfall??? something that kampung kids like me will never appreciate.




discovered some fossils!!! i decided to name it dino-pang-saurus after that.

some very scary looking bird. got to see it believe it. most unfriendly owl.


cutest owl ever



Penguins! so cute! somehow reminded me of my BM teacher who was equally cute. *hint* puan sa**mah. hahahahhaah =P

me and a bird


niao and niao ren (hahaha...beng don angry ya,joking only)


So many flamigos.



ostrich.

Some bird. There are just so so so many different types of birds.


The entrance fee for the bird park is $18. quite worth the money i would say, provided if u catch all the shows they have. it's really amazing to see how these birds behaved. i wonder how they train these birds. Even my own 'bird' is not as well-trained. hahahahahaha. =P
come back to these parrots, they are just so lovely. one of the parrots can sing 3 songs in 3 differently languages! those songs are 'ke ren nai kan papa', 'rasa sayang' and 'happy birthday' . then there was a girl whose birthday falls on that day, and the parrot sings a birthday song for her. it's called 'niao ge' ie. lagu burung.

an obedient parrot. very obedient

fish eating pelicans. i won a post card here by giving the correct answer. =)

attempting friendster lala-mui. beng hay likes.
for beng hay again.

also for benghay. i know u'll like it.


we are the most dangerous species. 2 niao ren trapped in a cage


even machines can 'jiang niao hua' . machines can talk cock.


An eagle.


that's all folks.

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